In the midnight hour I can feel your power

i just watched the madonna episode of glee, the only madonna song i do actually like is like a prayer, here are some excerpts

Chorus:

When you call my name it's like a little prayer
I'm down on my knees, I wanna take you there
In the midnight hour I can feel your power
Just like a prayer you know I'll take you there


I close my eyes, Oh God I think I'm falling
Out of the sky, I close my eyes
Heaven help me

It's like a dream, no end and no beginning
You're here with me, it's like a dream


Just like a prayer, your voice can take me there
Just like a muse to me, you are a mystery
Just like a dream, you are not what you seem
Just like a prayer, no choice your voice can take me there


sad thing is i ve heard this song countless times, but for some reason now, its having an emotional impact on me. wth...

oh k so i exaggerate

those that have me on facebook, may have seen my complaints about my essay, i apologise, just me procrastinating wanting attention, and distractions. But honestly the hardest essay i ve ever had to write, i tried quite a lot, hopefully i ll get a good mark for it. if not i will turn into a anarchist, i say this cause my essay was on nationalism, which i believe anarchist is the opposite of nationalism. i know have to proof read my draft, and you how much i love to proof read!!

i'll give my all, but i don't expect the world in return

argh

i hate how little progress i am making >: [
i spent the day listening to frank Sinatra, as enjoyable as that was... i ve made no progress. In any case, listen to Frank Sinatra - Unforgettable.

DNA

i am rather annoyed at my parents, and at all parents, they make such big deals out of the smallest things, and really want to control what i do, if it were up to them i would stay at home all day, everyday, xept uni. If they thought i was going to do bad things, TRUST ME I WOULD HAVE DONET THINGS ALONG TIME AGO. i just want to enjoy time with my friends in my free time, nothing sinister. Honestly, i ve never got in trouble, or have caused trouble. This is not a problem reserved to just me, a lot of my friends especially in my year level, are so restricted. They, like me, wont get into trouble, are good, smart people, and work so hard to get where they are, but guess that doesn't matter to parents.

media and communication major

i wish i could talk to you more, really do. Through any channels i can talk, its more difficult for you, i assume, i don't know, i wish i could talk to you more.

CINEMA DUE ON THE 23RD U FK FACE RETARD

FUK. almost fkn failed cus i didnt remeber the fukn correct date for the assignment i thought i had fkn 5 more days but in reality one day in which i have not done n e fkn work for it. FK! i have finished it , but is so rushed and references are so shitty!! i hope i pass. I WILL NEVER BE THIS CARELESS AGAIN. FK U. not u the reader. talking to myself

28th politics/cinema, 5th mirco due --- vibol procrastinating bad

i am so tired and sleepy these days annoys me. three assignments due as well!! i start reading 30minutes later i fall asleep.

Caval Card

A caval card allows any uni student to go to any uni to burrow books from their library, since melb did not have what i wanted, i went to monash clayton to find if they had what i want. as crossing the road to maccas, J-walking D and P ran across the road fearing getting hit by a cars, while i leisurely walk across the road looking at the 80km/h car. D and P where like Vibol run, while i was just strolling across. I knew i wasnt going to get hit by a car, but it was definitely a rush to walk so close to fast moving cars.

prophecies

so it has come full circle, i knew something was going to happen to stuff it all up. Though it did not happen how i thought it would, but something did happen to ruin the status quo. This has been a good thing, for you have revealed your true colours. It will end eventually, and then you will have nothing, as we won't be here for you. For you have not been here at all.

for i would plunge my knife into ceasar and be care free

i am feeling something at the moment i cannot describe, for i have not felt this emotion often. i think it resembles guilt, or is just hunger. I never feel guilty, it just does not compute with my emotions, but i am feeling it now. for reasons i dont understand. a journey of self discovery awaits...not. i really hate this feeling. But there is nothing to feel guilty about.

inspired

Look at the sky tonight, the stars are aligning
For me I’ll look into your eyes, I’m flying
Look at the moon, how brightly it does shine
Waiting to see you again, a feeling I cannot define
Look at the comets that fly by, they go by so fast
5 minutes can seem to be an hour; I just want the moment to last
Look at outer space, it so vast and beautiful

the beast below

There’s a portrait of me out there,
Of all the travesties I’ve committed,
With all the truths I have omitted,
The hearts that I have broken,
The shatters of my own,
The tears I’ve shed,
Tears shed for me,
Of the pain I have felt,
And of the scars that I have inflicted on you,
I am no angel, nor am I the devil incarnate,
Flaws and all I am, me,
There is this portrait out there,
You can gaze at its image,
You can comment on its disrepair
But please don’t show me, him

for i am the lion that lacks courage

i know i have it in me, i just need to be impulsive/spontaneous about it! i should stop thinking as all i do is think and thinking is time consuming. i shall go see the wizard and find out i had it all along?

argh!!

i ve been living on adrenalin for the past 20 hours or so... i havent been sleeping well nor dreaming well.argh!!i feel like starting a fighting with the next person that annoys me.

inconsistencies

its some that i am. but i try so hard to be consistent, but i do end up breaking my rules, not being tolerant, not being the person i know i can be. i blame the situation, sometimes the sitaution makes me inconsistent, nothing is ever black and white. you are my shade of grey. i consider myself to be tolerant but sometimes, i just can't be and ill act accordingly. Also its about EFFORT, i can make the effort to be your friend, but i need to feel like its being reciprocated , the Vibol now, is one where if i don't feel like your trying at all, i just wont try. unless i especially like you. haha. sad. still my inconsistencies is still better than you being consistent.

together

how i was taught how to spell together was by making the worlds smaller -- to-get-her.
how romantic.

i am truly scared....

of getting drunk, i may do something i regret such as calling someone and destroying it, or something that i should do 100% sober i do whilst drunk. haha, i am not that bad, it me just hearing stories of people drunk texting/calling haha. please if i am with you whilst drinking take my phone from me. kthanksbye : D

TGI: technology guilty indulgence?

i suck at acronyms...my friends and i went to dinner at TGIs, quite nice. But it so weird how all of us were using our phones so much. it wasn't like it was boring and we went on fb for entertainment, since we were all close friends, it wasn't awkward or any thing it was that it was so natural for us to use our phones. i think next time i go dinner, we should have a ban on phone use, unless a nosey parents decides to call, which happens a lot!!

11:11

HOW interesting for the past 4days, at 11:11 i talk to someone interesting.

i am the best liar you've ever met.

I am just referring to this as on the spot lying, like telling parents why i am going to be late coming home, or looking after drunk friends.
well i just dled a movie and can't wait to watch it: The invention of lying.
Staring the brillant Ricky Gervais. The basic plot is that they live in a world where ever one tells the truth, until a person invents lying and gets away with alot of shizz..

i'm falling...

going down so fast, with nothing to stop me
i can't hit the breaks, i don't want to stop
i don't want you to stop me