omg i need to study for the first time in my life!

what is this!@#@!!!!!

i usually am able to cram and don't study and still be able to get good marks, but second semester is not working out too well for me! !

well only in one subject, but this is my flagship subject the one i most care about and well the only i should do the best in!

i need to FUKN STUDY!!

i like getting good grades : )

on a side note i had a dream i got a h1, but in real life i only got a P. The dream was the night before fuck you brain!

Virginia Woolf's suicide note - i find it very beautiful, but its a suicide note =/

I feel certain that I am going mad again. I feel we can't go through another of those terrible times. And I shan't recover this time. I begin to hear voices, and I can't concentrate. So I am doing what seems the best thing to do. You have given me the greatest possible happiness. You have been in every way all that anyone could be. I don't think two people could have been happier 'til this terrible disease came. I can't fight any longer. I know that I am spoiling your life, that without me you could work. And you will I know. You see I can't even write this properly. I can't read. What I want to say is I owe all the happiness of my life to you. You have been entirely patient with me and incredibly good. I want to say that — everybody knows it. If anybody could have saved me it would have been you. Everything has gone from me but the certainty of your goodness. I can't go on spoiling your life any longer. I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been. V.

all consuming, all boring...

when it comes to relationships, i categories them into two types:

the boring love

the all consuming love

I seem to always fall into the latter. Though I strive for the first(but not really). I believe we all want a relationship that is boring, as in theres not much drama and not much to fight about, but there is still love and passion.

The all consuming love is toxic, and drama ridden, all there is passion and love, with the added flames or insane jealously and possessiveness, where in all eventualities love is a game.

Like i said most of my relationships have been the latter. I've only pictured myself with one person to have a boring love. The first and last time I ever want something normal.

it's a new dawn, it's a new day, it's a new life for me

hi im vibol. who the eff are you.

i will walk past you without saying hi, but i would only do this, as i actually don't know you, i do remember someone complaining about me saying that when i walked past that i didnt say hi, ...err

i don't know you, i may know of you, but i do not know you personally and i don't constitute you adding me once on fb and me rejecting you cause i actually never met you in my life as a reason to say hi. also i hate it when people say i don't say hi, i never wont say hi to a friend, that i personally know. i don't say hi, you don't say hi, i don't go bad mouthing you to our mutual friends, as i need to say again I DON'T FUCKING KNOW YOU. or FURTHERMORE, if i have met you say once, i didn't say hello as i know the conversation we would have would be awkward as hell, and im going make myself go through such a weird situation AS LIFE IS WAY TOO SHORT. why didn't you say hi, if you thought that we knew each other enough to exchange pleasantries. at least i can use my university as an excuse to be a snob, you on the other hand have no real social skills, don't you?

happy birthday vibol your are 19 btw, happy one year anniversary

I am 19!!!! haha, also this marks one year of blogging!! i started when i turned 18 last year and i guess i have come full circle!! i have grown so much, gone through so much and has smarten up quite a lot.

this is me at 19! i am wearing my yr 12 rugby top hehe.

goodbye blogspot, hello blog X2

i might be really busy this semester, so i won't be blogging as much as i would like. also i two of my subjects requires a blog :s 2k words each so i might be doing that for awhile if i write any thing interesting for that ill post up on here. take care. i still love you xoxo gossip girl. wait wrong website.