in a rut

-need a job
-need a car

when i have these things i will be happy,
all i can say is that i am working on it.

i feel trapped with the limitations i have at the moment, i am trying my best to free myself, but the world is a hard place to live in, i m not complaining cause i know there are people who have it worse than me, i just need to keep reminding myself to push on and achieve your goals, cause i know i can do it, i just need a chance to prove myself.

ON HOLIDAYS but i have nothing to do, would rather go to uni, but i am enjoying the copious amounts of sleep i am getting.

CAN any close friends of my just have a birthday party, even if your birthday is ages away I would love to celebrate your life, so i can stop thinking about my life 24/7 which i am doing now

WOULD love to go out with some uni friends and get plastered. also with my own friends as well.

i have done the naughty deeds for a paradigm, shift just can't be bothered writing about it now. SO EXPECT ONE SOON

I HATED the doctor who finale, answered no questions of mine, but still brilliant.

had a crazy, wondrous dream i was in america, insanely colourful and the places my brain came up with amazing, at times like these i am proud of you brain.

shit i think i sound like i am complaining, that is all folks and there isn't more

P.S

there will be more

gethimtothegreek

no one hates music, there is no one in the world that hates music, we may not like certain musics, but no ones hates it.

red light district

my morality as it seems
deems me necessary to redeem
i have a place in mind
where my morality ceases to be kind
a place of the lowest of the low
a place where the neons shines and the red light glows
where your fantasy comes to fruition
momentary ecstasy at a price, a little tuition
the alcohol engages me
while you strip down to cradle me
pain soon turns into pleasure
entertain me, show me the true meaning of leisure

i put my mask back on
head out into incandescent lights
normal is the watchword
i secretly yearn
for the lights to turn red
for the place where i dream to have never know

KEVIN RUDD

though this blog post will have nothing to do with politics
KEVIN 07, i kept wondering how long you were in power for, cause honestly it felt like forever, then i realised kevin 07..so you were in power since 2007, so give or take 2-3 years. It has seemed forever, honestly i felt like its been 5 years!

i then realised during your "term" in power, i had gone through the most dramatic, hardest, happiest, most exciting periods of my life. VCE, Uni, R.M, in a nutshell, but so much more, the people i met during that period i can claim are some of my best friends. Learning especially who true friends are.

i never knew how much k-rudd represented in my life, but apparently its significant. NOTHING TO DO WITH POLITICS

its only 3 am, im suppose to be doing any thing am i?

i hate sleep
let me rephrase
i hate going to sleep
i feel that i could do so much more with the time that i spend sleeping
i LOVE sleeping in
i only love it, as i feel so freaken tired from not sleeping at a reasonable hour
and i need the extra time to sleep and regain energy so i am functional for the next day
i wished i lived in the city where everything opens late
i wished i lived in a city that never sleeps, new york, london, tokyo, paris


this being said i am going to say good night and i am going to sleep, as i am having a fancy lunch tomorrow with D and L and meeting a friend at uni to study and feel like i need my game face on : D ---game face, whilst my real face would be this {0}{0}
!@%&^%

the tale of allie brosh and the crazed adidas shoppers.

i went to sleep at 10pm last night on the couch with the ducted heating full frontal on my body, i sweated profusely. i then woke up at 3am which was the same time my parents woke up to get ready for work, they left at 4am, i played dead for an hour so i didn't have to interact with them. alex and victor were sleeping over at my cousins house that night and vimean went to work with my dad, so i had the house to myself . the house was dead silent and the sky outside was pitch black, it was extremely peaceful and the ducted heating made me feel toasty.

so at 4am i turned on the tv to watch the soccer match: england vs algeria. that was a disappointing match DRAW SRSLY? ENGLAND? when that finished i decided to go on a internet splurge, youtubing and various other internet activities that required some serious bandwidth. side note: i have a sucky internet plan i have 30 gigs worth of uploads and downloads....THIS IS NOT ENOUGH I WANT TO SHOOT MYSELF IN THE HEAD!! stupid plan my mum made us go on so we could get unlimited calls to any mobile or landline from the home phone. i digress... i decided to read some blogs well just one which was hyperboleandahalf and it was so hilarious made my morning seriously i probably read on 10% of her entire blogs so i still have a long way to go filled with humour hahaha. side not there euro was left at home : D. called D to go get breakfast at maccas. 2 sausage egg muffins and three hash brown later i was full. not entirely happy with the morning's takings decided to go glen for some quality coffee cause maccas coffee? questionable.




so driving to glen waverly we drive pass the adidas factory building i didnt notice what was happening there but D told me to pull over and i was wondering why? cause i saw him looking outside the windows and i was sort of panicking thing there was damage to the side of the car. so i pulled over and parked the car, D told me that there was an insane amount of people crowding around the adidas building and he thought that they were having their huge factory sale. to my delight they were. to describe what was going on in the building will be a hard task, i would have taken a picture but the overwhelming feelings of hunting down for a bargain got over me and i was in an insane shopping mode.

do u remember those scenes in movies where there was a huge sale and a mass of people fighting over clothes? this was this situations i may or may not have been fighting people for apparel. the sale was something like 10$ clothing and 50$ shoes. it was hardcore, i ran to the shoe section and bought myself a nice pair of shoes, quite pleased with that. i then went to the clothing sections and well chaos ensued, i was looking through the boxes and being hissed at, byelderly women: ' THATS MY BOX OF CLOTHING, FK OFF' i could not handle such animalistic imagery, so i floated around the clothing sections looking for clothes, nothing appealed to me, then we headed off, to glen had our drinks and went back home. i was home by 11am so it was a pretty intense morning.




i usually sleep around 3-4am wake up at 12pm and the baggs under my eyes will testify to this effect. but it was quite fun being up that early being entertain by allie brosh and youtube and D and crazed adidas shoppers. im not an early bird but it was a fun experiment.




p.s just wanted to say to allie brosh before she sues me for mimicking her style on her blog, just wanted to pay tribute to you thats all cause i think your awesome!!! tribute = lol, not that u died.

the phoenix who's allergic to fire

i am on the precipice of time itself and i can feel the flames encroaching
why do i embrace the burn, when i should be running, i accept the fate of the unyielding
it rushes over me with unmitigated fury, it destroys me ostentatiously; physically and mentally
not only do you destroy me with your embers you leave me with my thoughts
my psychosomatic illness pains more than the bullet you shot
psycho-narcosis will never solve me

i went to uni after i wrote this and i saw on a wall at uni this how coincidental

read my mind -

the killers


The good old days, the honest man;
The restless heart, the Promised Land
A subtle kiss that no one sees;
A broken wrist and a big trapeze

Oh well I don't mind, if you don't mind
'Cause I don't shine if you don't shine
Before you go, can you read my mind?

It’s funny how you just break down
Waitin' on some sign
I pull up to the front of your driveway
With magic soakin' my spine

Can you read my mind?
Can you read my mind?

The teenage queen, the loaded gun;
The drop dead dream, the Chosen One
A southern drawl, a world unseen;
A city wall and a trampoline

elephant in the room

hello pretty elephant in the room
how do i solve your problem
do you want some food?
or should i make you starve and die?
i wonder if its only us that sees you
either way you have to be solved
maybe i like you being in the room
as it means the problem i am having is real
and not a figment of my imagination
that second guessing myself and over thinking situations
was worth the mental strain and the time spent evaluating your size
i think i like you being in the room
what would make it worse is when a bigger elephant comes along
and then my elephant would shrink in size
i feel absolutely the worse now but i don't want to talk to you about the elephant
maybe i should let the bigger elephant just crush mine
is there a bigger elephant?
that question itself creates another elephant in the room

hello beautiful :(

for that 12 year old boy within me that will always feel inadequate

hated word of the day

a word i really hate REALLY HATE as the media uses it to describe internet activity is BLOGOSPHERE its so stupid. i absolutely hate the word.

CHANGING ADDRESS...sort of

well i couldn't and didn't know how to change this blogs html address but changed my blogs title to the blog less travelled by, i feel its more appropriate and sorta funny what do people think? should i change it back?

i showed dorian gray his portrait...soz

decided that i am going to do oscar wilde in my ipi exam, this still leaves me 7 more political thinkers to choose. Either way Oscar Wilde is a goddam legend, his writings and thoughts are like a mirror of my own inner thoughts...darkly satirical with major emphasises on sarcasm. here are some of his quotes

Anyone who lives within their means suffers from a lack of imagination

A little sincerity is a dangerous thing, and a great deal of it is absolutely fatal

Consistency is the last refuge of the unimaginative

Every portrait that is painted with feeling is a portrait of the artist, not of the sitter

I am not young enough to know everything

Morality, like art, means drawing a line someplace

The only thing to do with good advice is pass it on. It is never any use to oneself

The only thing worse than being talked about is not being talked about

The true mystery of the world is the visible, not the invisible

Whenever people agree with me I always feel I must be wrong

I can resist anything but temptation

Life is far too important a thing ever to talk seriously about

To lose one parent, Mr Worthing, may be regarded as a misfortune; to lose both looks like carelessness

A man cannot be too careful in the choice of his enemies

To get back my youth I would do anything in the world, except take exercise, get up early, or be respectable

Always forgive your enemies - nothing annoys them so much

When a woman marries again, it is because she detested her first husband. When a man marries again, it is because he adored his first wife. Women try their luck; men risk theirs

Bigamy is having one wife too many. Monogamy is the same

He has no enemies, but is intensely disliked by his friends

True friends stab you in the front

A poet can survive everything but a misprint

I was working on the proof of one of my poems all the morning, and took out a comma. In the afternoon I put it back again

let them have cake

i saw in someones Facebook description box something so god darn stupid, cus i know its their attempt to make them seem smart or have some worldly insight but you are so stupid, soooo stupid. im not usually the one to make harsh comments on people but i feel like being a bit of a jerk.

my mum once told me that you can't have your cake and eat it too, but i just say i simply dont like cake

THE MEANING OF THAT PHRASE IS COMPLETELY LOST ON YOU SON....the meaning of that phrase is that you cannot possess something and then want to possess another thing that is completely incompatible. for example being married and having an affair. or a more literal translation involving cake, eating the most fattening cake in the world and not exercising and expecting to stay slim. Either way you've completely lost the meaning of that phrase. In any case here is a picture of a cake

good england

i was talking to someone, made me fall in love with them just for the use of correct grammatical terms. the correct use of apostrophise and commas and full stops. yum. mayb this means means i am attracted to intelligence, or that i am just weird about how i want people to talk to me. I refuse to type correctly online, using grammar properly is not something i do online, i only sort of use it correctly on my blog, but sometimes u'll see a hahahah ehehheheheh :) :D, because it breaks the formality of writing correctly and makes it fun for me to write.

while you were a sleep

i believe its another episode of vibols dreams i feel like i need you to give you a crash course in what has been happening in my dream world.

dream 1: i dreamed that i was transferring to monash clayton, in my dream i could feel emotions of me crying WHY DID I LEAVE MELBOURNE also monash looked different it had a gate entrance like the knox school, very grand

dream 2: well not dream two but something that has been happening alot in my dreams, where i feel like i am getting hit in the head and feeling the whole collision to the head. e.g having a bowling ball thrown to my head, it actually hurts and wakes me up from sleep, i can actually feel the bowling ball it me in the head. and in other dreams i keep getting hit in the head and actually feeling get hit in the head it and HURTS. WEIRD!!

dream3:in my dream i met your family, did not want to look them in the eye, it so weird. then i found out we both had the same grandmother which made it so much weirder. ok this was the worst dream LOL, and having a conversation with your brother about him wanting to look indie.

observations: you used to be in my dreams a lot, and now u appear so minimally which sort of annoys me but makes me feel like this is a good thing.
another person: for someone i am constantly thinking about why are you not in my dreams, instead of getting you in my dreams i am getting your friends.

Dreams are our brain organising information from our days, and i think i spend considerable brian time thinking about you, can you please be in my dreams haha, cause i know you(brain) make them unfair dreams. : )

sunday bacon for the monday generation

ur in a genre all of ur own
i dled mgmts new album congratulations and in th genre section of itunes their genre is psychedelic, LOVE lol
their album sounds like a lullaby to a person on the biggest acid trip : )